AWAKENING

obviously, i am doing A LOT of thinking. it's like those nights before
a maths test where your head is full of figures. i was thinking about
my insomnia and how it has coincided with the veil of depression being
lifted and i realise: i have been asleep on so many levels for over a
decade, and now i'm awake and there is so much life to live and so
much unconsciousness to catch up on. how can i possibly sleep?

i have an interview with this teaching thing on tuesday next week.

i have written amends letters to mommy, charne.

i have written amends letters to my friends.

i am sharing at the self-mutilator's anon next week fri.

for the first time in my journey i want to get better, without doubt,
reservation or half-heartedness.